Saturday, November 24, 2007
Watched Facing The Giants today. It was so inspiring! And superbly amazing to see how God can really work in our lives. It's such a tinely reminder to me, of my purpose in life. My purpose in life is not to shine for myself or to hog all fame and glory for my own benefit. BUT, to shine for God. Yes, sometimes, we may feel that we're small and weak..but just like what david's dad said in the movie, it's so that people can see just our Great and Mighty our God is in our lives. :) So true!
Another learning point for me was that sometimes we pray to God, asking for success and victories...we have this mindset that as long as we pray to God, He'll grant us victories, or rather things that we consider as victories in the worldly sense. I've realised my mistake in thinking now. And now, I'll resolve to remember this: We win, we praise Him. We lose, we praise Him. Either way. we praise Him. Cos He's the sole controller of my life. Come what may, God is with me. Whether my results are good or bad, I'll praise Him. Even though it may seem so much easier to praise Him when they're good, and maybe even senseless to praise Him when they're bad...but I'll still praise Him for God is good all time, even when it seems like we've failed. It's difficult, but I'll still try. Cos i know that as long as we honour God in all that we do, He'll honour His promises in our lives.
Truly.
To God Be All Glory and Praise. :D
changeme.
10:43 PM
Woah. Never thought I'll survive five days of running around and trying to get kids to sit down and finish their food! haha. Vacation Bible School (VBS) was great fun. :D It was a totally new and great experience for me. Getting the kids to sit down and listen was indeed an uphill task..and it really makes you wonder sometimes, exactly where do these tiny dynamoes get their energy from!
Seeing them perform their songs last night..it really made me feel proud. I mean, after all the dancing around for almost five days, these kids really deserved the applause! And, was the third prize for Best Robot a very pleasant surprise to my group-Great galaxy! (the light saved the day!)
The adults who put together this VBS really do deserve a Big Hand; and a special salute to Commander John! Three cheers for all the 'non-teens'! ;) Oh. And of course a big High Five to all the trainers! I think we'd all agree that our baby-sitting skills have surely improved---maybe we can consider taking up the job to earn pocket money! Hee. But most importantly, I think through this five special days, we've planted seeds in these kids' hearts (I hope!) and I'm sure God will make sure this seeds will have enough warmth, moisture and oxygen to sprout into seedlings, then strong trees to bear fruits and beautiful flowers, for His Glory.
changeme.
10:24 PM
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Prelims are over. So are the O levels. I'm really relieved nad glad I pulled through. (:]<-- my smile of relief!) Countless thanks to God. If not for God's continuous strength and peace in me, I really wouldn't have made it at all.
But somehow..I don't feel as happy as I think I should be. It's like you're supposed to feel "Yes! Finally. No more studying!" but...It's like it's over. Secondary school is over. The 'O's are over.My ten years in St. Margaret's are over. I will no longer don the polka-dotted uniform. Is this a sense of loss I feel? I really don't know.
I feel so troubled these day. Faced with countless decisions to make. Where can I go with my sky-high prelim points? It's not that I'm not thankful that at least I'm eligible for the PAE. But you get the feeling that nobody's willing to accept you, no where to go cos your points are so high...panic starts to set in. You worry if any JC will accept you. You worry about the subject combinations. You're at almost a total lost as to what to do. I think, maybe that's why I dislike making decisions--why can't we just have everything? Why are we forced to make a choice?
That's life, some may say. I can't deny it. But do I have to accept it?
I think it's all part of growing up. A huge part of me doesn't want to grow up. cos I don't want to be faced with the responsibility of making choices and decisions. I want to be in the shelter of my parents. Still be a little girl.
I think it's time I rely on God. Rest in His peace and assurance. Sleep in among the sweet-smelling roses of God's promises. And be filled with God-breathed bravery to make the decisions that are always backed-up with God's support.
Lord,
This is your child, Tamlyn, calling out to You for help and guidance.
Hear my cry, O Lord.
Child of the Most High,
Tamlyn
changeme.
10:23 PM