Mommy and Amelia! Yeah!
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Happy Childrens' Day lunch at Raffles Town Club! Deeelicious! ;)
Jie jie and I, looking really happy!!
changeme.
1:09 PM
It's been eons since I last blogged. Been really busy with exams and all...started A math tuition. Now that all it's over, I really don't know whether to heave a sigh of great relief or to cry! My results are really lousy, and i haven't got enough courage to tell my mom yet. I failed my A math, mostly because of carelessness; imagine the much better marks I could have gotten without these mistakes. But I'm not gonna give up, I know I can do it with God, and I wanna keep on trying.
I feel really really lousy now. Cos it's like I finally realised what a terrible sister and unhelpful daughter I am! I'm so lazy that I don't help make the bed, wash the dishes...at all. I know it's no use complaining, and it's funny that I know that I shouldn't be doing all these terrible things but I'm doing it! Isn't it like knowing that it's wrong to sin, but still going ahead to sin? Argh! I'm just so frustrated with myself.
You've gotta change Tamlyn! You've gotta change.
Now, jie jie thinks I'm two-faced. cos I'm like nice and all to my friends in school but not helpful at all at home. I don't know. It's just sounds so wicked tobe called a hypocrite. To me, I'm just not helping out at home, cos I'm realt tired and just want to relax and be lazy. But that's an excuse! I guess I really have to do some serioius self-reflection here. serious.
What's the problem with me?
I think I'm relying on my own strength so much and being so self-absorbed that I'm not listening to God's voice, not relying on His strength. I've been a really really bad girl. :( It sound childish, but that's what I'm really feeling right now. I have to right my life with God right now, before it all goes haywire. I guess, it's always like that is it? You start feeling so blessed that everything in your life is going so well cos you've trusted in the Lord and He's showing you His grace and mercy. Then, while enjoying these wonderful blessings, you start thinking that you don't need God anymore nad you can rely on youself. NO! It's wrong.
That's where I'm at now, I think. And, I'm not gonna let go on. I'm gonna put a stop to it. There's no way you can get me, Mr. Sa Tan! Cos I've got my Lord backing me up! He'll guide me through it all, I'm sre. No matter what maze you've set up to make me trip, my God will guide me through. He is faithful and has promised that He'll never leave me nor forsake me. Thank you Lord for Your unending love and unfailing faithfulness! :D
changeme.
12:13 PM