Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Oh my. I can't believe that I'm such a cuckoo head! :( I was such a silly milly bead today that I actually mised up my exam venue! And it's the As!! Oh my. I'm like the ultimate.
Ok, here's what happened. All along, that is from the oral onwards, I was always under the impression the all my jap papers would be held at the centre itself. I mead, afterall, oral and listening werer held there plus I take my lessons there. Who would have taken note of the subtle difference in number? Tell me who?! Sigh. I guess I can blame no one except myself for this blunder...argh, can't believe I was stupid. I was thought those pple who can actually mix up their exam timing were careless to note check before hand, now I've joined the gang! haha. >_<>
My heart started to flutter with panic. I checked my entry proof. I realised something was seriously seriously wrong when I saw that the venue code for PW was the same for Jap written! I felt like I was living a bad dream! It was 7:07am then. Oh some auspicious time for such a major mix-up. I started to panic. like how, man, how could I make such a mistake! I packed my things and started my marathon/ brisk walk like made to the J8 bus stop. Managed to call rebekah to confirm the venue again, then Xin Ying. I was like praying the how way for God to let Bus 13 come soon but not before i reached the bus stop. I know, my prayer sounds so demanding but I was desperate.
Finally got on the bus. OH my, the ride was like the most nerve-wrecking journey I've ever had, And my stomach chose to feel a little stomach-achy at that time. I was still picturing in my mind, how when I reached the second level in school, I would first run to the toilet no matter what. haha. On the way, I was still receiving good luck smses from my well-meaning jpa classmates. little did they know that I was battling against time! I figured that if I was late, I wouldn's lose out lot cos the paper was 2hours45mins, that's quite a lot of time.
Anyway, after I alighted, i resumed the next half of my marathon. I was really walking like mad. Didn't occured to me to run cos I guess I lose more energy that way. Walked all the way to the CC then I saw the shutters down, I was like What?! How come it's not opened yet? Had to make a detour and thankfully I managed to find my way to the side gate and finally up to the second floor to see Xin Ying and Rebekah outside. I was like PHEW! I had could've died if the side gate was locked. It would have been another long long walk to the front (ask me, I've walked that way like twice, it's really really far.)
So yup my little expedition of sorts ended safely in school. I reached at around 7:45am. Wasn't late. Seeing how I amazingly mixed up my exam venue and then amazingly still managed to not be late for the paper, I should be more thankful to God, more than just laughing at my mistake and complain over what happened.
I mean, if it wasn't for God, I could've been sleeping at the bus stop till like 7:30 and by that time I would be super super late for the paper.
If He hadn't planted that "Eh? something's wrong!" thought in my head, I wouldn't have decided to check my entry proof or called to check.
If it wasn't for God, the bus wouldn't have come just a little faster just so that I could save those little minute.
If it wasn't for Him, who'd watching over me all this while, all my life through, to protect me from dangers unseen, seeing that I'll survive blunders like these and tide through my life storms.
Today's expedition of sorts taught me more than just being more careful and alert especially when it comes to exam details. It taught me not to take God's existence for granted, not to take His grace, His faithful watching-over, His protection for granted. But to really treasure it. It made me love God more. Not just for all the wonderful wonderful things He does. Not for the things He does. But just for who He is. The amazing God who watches over and protects His children. The God of LOVE who forgives and accepts each and every one of us, no matter how undeserving we are, how ugly, fat, unpopular we think we are. He loves us just as we are and it is only right that we love Him back.
Lord, I love YOU. I really do. Lots and Lots. A thousand times over. :)
Thank you for loving me so much more, more than I can love you back. Lord, THANK YOU.
changeme.
9:29 PM