Sunday, October 05, 2008
Finally made it to church today. After two weeks of 'skipping church' to prepare for the promos...I never felt more guilty. :( Anyway, had a great time of Bibile study during cell today! Sometimes when I feel just so alone and friendless, I thanks thank the Lord for blessing me with such fun and wonderful cell mates! :D Though I only see then once a week and we're are not that close as I hoped we would be, they are the ones to whom I can comfortably speak about my spiritual struggles, my weaknesses and sins. I don't know, maybe sometimes you don't have to be physically close or close in the worldly sense to be truly close friends...hmmm, but then again I'm not really sure what I mean here. I don't know how to explain it. Talking about friends, it was apt that today's topic was about fellowship. Sometime ago, I was talking to Brenda about how I wasn't exactly in any ministry in church at all. it's like I've been so much of a receiver than a giver. I've been receiving so much love and care from people around me, from God, but I'm not giving it back at all. It's been something that I felt that God was trying to tell me. It's like I'm selfish, yup just plain selfish. It's hard to admit this, but yes I am selfish. unknowingly, I've been caring about me, myself and I too much that I've overlooked the need to give back. haha. Maybe it really is 'payback time'!
Anyway, it was rather sad to hear that Teens Time is going to be history already. and come to think of it, it's actually 'cause people like me don't actively participate in it that the painstakingly planned acitivites are gone to waste. :( So now Teens Time is replaced with these 7 ministries that they are going to officially launch next year. It sounds exciting to me. Maybe it's because I've sort of made up my mind that I need to give back to the Lord whatever He's given me, like using the gifts and talents He has blessed me with to praise Him back. Yup so the exciting thing is that there's going to be a Dance Ministry! Wo-hoo! :D I'm thinking that it's going to be truckloads of fun and so cool 'cause it's like I'll get to praise God and do something I love at the same time! I hope I get parental permission to join it too.
Meanwhile, it's PW and PW and more PW ahead! My sunny days ahead are now all covered up by ominous black clouds of PW. The weather forecast for this week: showers all week, with occasional thunderstorms looming! So beware!!
haha. Right. Have got to more optimistic, I know. Hmph! >_< color="#333399">storm clouds! In with the sunshine! GO girl!
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