He reigns. You're my everything.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Was set out to make this week the best week of my life...but my oh my, what a twist of events did I have. Ok, it did start out great. My Grade 6 ballet exam went unexpectedly smoothly cos God was watching over me; not that for the rest of the week He didn't. I wasn't coping well with the weather changes I guess, with all the sunny-rainy weather. A really terribel headache struck me on Monday during the prefects' camp. I had actually spent quite a bit of effort and time preparing the games I was charged of, but the throb in my head was sooo bad, I just wanted to go home! I seldom have headaches, so that one really hit me hard in the head. :( So ya, we didn't get to play any games at all, but it was quite a fulfilling day: we did a lot of evaluation and planning ahead. A lot of our sec 3 prefects were falling ill too, and we were like so worried cos we had a 4-day camp on wednesday.

By tuesday, I was running a fever and contemplating with the decision to go or not go for the camp. I went to see a doctor by myself for the first time (woah.) cos my mom was babysitting and wasn't free. Anyway, the doctor wasn't much of a help. She just prescribed some cough misture, cold medicine and lozenges. I haven't recovered at all by Wednesday morning but I was looking forward to this camp for as long as I can remember, I wasn't going to miss it. So I reported to school on Wednesday at 7:30am. My mom let me take a taxi there, considering that I was ill and the weight of all my barang-barang.

I managed to survive through the busride to Raffles Marina, the tent-pitching, the carpark lunch, rafting....and then pulled out of rock-climbing. I was by then, totally unwell to engage in any sort of physical activity. The whole time I was there sitting in the shade, watching my friends climb the wall, I was tossing the idea of going home in my mind. I wanted to kayak...maybe, just maybe I can survive till the 2nd day before I decide to go home. But my condition took a turn for the worse. By dinner time my temperature was a high 39.2 degrees Celcius. Three if my teachers immediately brought me to the air-conditioned room (the billiard room) to cool down. My temperature was way too high. For the next few moments before my dad came by to pick me up, they tried to ways and means to cool me down.

Now, after 2 whole days of resting at home, I'm much better! Yay. :D But I still haven't really gotten over the enormous amount of regret I feel about missing the camp. sigh. But thank God I'm safe and sound at home, imagine what would happen if I continued with those vigorous activities with my fever and all. Thank God for keeping me safe.

Dear God,

Thank you for keeping me safe.

though I couldn't stay for the camp,

You gave me the chance

to actually just see the campsite

to be part of the camp

even if it was just for a day.

Thank you for wonderful teachers

who cared for me

and kept me safe

till you sent my dad to bring me home.

Now I safe at home

thought the camp's ended

I know there is nothing better

than being

safe in Your arms.

Thank you Lord,

For keeping me safe.

Amen.

changeme.
9:19 AM

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