Sunday, August 28, 2005
We had to a presentation on the history fiel trip. I had volunteered to do the powerpoint. When i added the photos to the slides, I knew they would take up space but I didin't about how it would affect the loading porocess and all that. After all, i could be considered as a computer half-illiterate. i dunno, when we couldn't load the ppt that they, someone said something that hurt me. She didn't do anything. She was just being herself. Ever so straightfoward. She wasn't being difficult. it just occured to me at that poin that it was because of me that we couldn't present for 2 consecutive days.
Then, during chapel yesterday, I felt that God was trying to speak to me to the speaker. We talked about difficult people and baing difficult ourselves. False guilt. not being able to forgive ourselves. Are we bigger than god that He says to forgive us but we say that we cannot forgive ourselves? it made me think, really hard. Why was i blaming myself soo much when my grp members had already forgiven me. God too. I should receive His forgiveness in open arms not folded.
Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins, Lord. Because for Jesus, I know that i'm safe. And, I am determined now to live that life you've given me. I'll live for the line and not the dot. The life God rewards. I read that book and probably will read it again cos I don't quite understand. but, Lord I want to bring back that 10 minas for you. I want to believe that you are the rewarder and it matters to you what we do.
changeme.
9:19 AM